My friend K asked me a really good question the other day.
"Why are you so terrified that someone might remember you?"
It's a good question. Without meaning to, I work very hard to be nondescript- to be on non-memorable- because it's safer. "Keep your head down and no one will shoot it off," you know? (Granted, that might be better advice if I lived in a war zone (as opposed to Groovy Land), but I've always taken it as a basically Good Idea. Well, at least since high school. I think I was wicked memorable then. The stakes were lower somehow.
I don't think it's in my best interest to stay hidden in the weeds anymore. I think the badass is about making sure that people always remember me for better or for worse and not being so afraid that they won't like me. Because you because really what's the worst thing that could happen? They remember me? They think I'm fabulous? They think I'm horrible?
More likely, I won't even be in their heads at half an hour after. I maybe I will. So today, I will strive to be memorable. I will not censor myself.
I will be afraid to be remembered.
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